This is not a God thing. I know that He longs to be gracious to us. This is a “my Heart thing.” Cultivating a heart of gratitude in every situation, and clinging to the Sovereignty of our Daddy God. The line that says “O’ the differences that often are between, what we really want and what we really need.” Tonight I needed to be close to the heart of my Daddy, and be reminded that the cares of this world are just that… of this world. I have what matters the most in this world and in the next, a relationship with My Daddy. A heart that knows HIM. and that to me is the most precious thing I have. I got wrecked earlier listening to this, It came out of nowhere, but apparently it was a much needed reminder. (my little ramble that I hope blesses someone else) <3
These past couple of weeks have been interesting. Last Sunday during worship as we sang Fire fall down, I could hear “Make me thy fuel, flame of God!” over and over. When I sang out: Show me your heart, show me Your way, Show me Your glory; I saw in the Spirit, Jesus sitting on the throne, shining like the sun, and I saw His hand reach out and point in a direction, it was the motion to GO. I saw myself dancing and leaping in a warfare dance for India. Later, I addressed my church family about my calling to India. I shared a little about how the Lord called and has unfolded this plan in my life. It’s funny, when we testify of His work, our understanding expands and we are able to glimpse His purpose for our of lives. As I shared I couldn’t help but cry. It’s amazing to know that this was His plan for me all my life. All that I am, even as a small child, characteristics that were apart of me even then, and everything I’ve experienced, are a part of this call. I think this is what leaves me awestruck.
This Sunday during worship, as we were singing Burning Ones, I was so overwhelmed by the Spirit, I couldn’t stop praying in tongues. As I prayed I saw the words come out of my mouth and form a gold, bronze shimmery dust that covered India’s atmosphere. I then saw Jesus’s foot stomp in the middle of the country and I saw the ground shake. I sensed His authority being established.
These past few weeks I’ve also met with a few people to discuss and get some direction for when, how, and with who, this will take place. Also just to hear about their experiences in India. Today I was looking through some photos of ministries in India right now and their progress, my heart was moved with compassion and I wept. It produced such a feeling of longing in my heart. I’m not sure how I will be effective in ministry over there, but I will obey and KNOW: That greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.
All in all, it seems very real now, everything is set in motion now. It’s funny, like two months ago I was in a transition, and I was antsy. I was going through the usual, “WHAT AM I DOING?” I asked the Lord, What is this?! As I prayed about it, I saw myself waiting for a train, with my luggage all packed, and I was glancing at my watch. I heard Him say: This next train, will be much faster than any other. Well, it seems here I am and I feel it now, this is a time of acceleration. Jodie Hughes prophesied; This isn’t a giant leap for you, but just one step, the transition will be that smooth. Exhale…